a piece of friendship

These photos were taken at year 2007
starting of OUR Form 3 life ...

today on the way walking back to classroom with CHA SIEW & KAM KAM,
saw a gang of gals
holding each other hands tight tight
chit-chatting & laughing all the way
they look so happy with their friendship

and yea ,
CHA SIEW said ''those SOH PO look like 当年的你们 "
i got a strongly feel of sad n touch
when i heard 当年 this word...
admit it, i did experienced this moment before
when im in Form 3

But .. since when this happy momment was disappear?

i couldn't get the accurate answer...

i replied him ..
'' yea, last time we act like sakai n broken image, but we don't care!
now... ? we alr din hold each other hands for such a long time ''

he ... speechless ...
KAM can und my feel, he dun wan to talk more n hurt me more

at that moment , i was thinking
" i really miss that moment ..."

but back to reality,
we all had changed
foo change to be more realistic
bell changed to be more selfish n boastful
wai wei changed to be more n more 尖酸刻薄

how abt me?
i changed to be more optimistic, and like to care abt everything

mayb tis changing is good for others ppl
but is bad for me
when i really use my heart to care abt my frenz
they won't give me a positive respond
i think i should be care abt myself more than care abt other ppl
right?

how abt STAR ?
i din found any big diff in her mind
mayb life in CHINA really make her stressful
is doesn't have much time to change ba?
* such a good thing also *

since form 4...
i should had noticed that u all were changed
why im so stupid.. 头脑迟钝
and keep on hurt by u, u, and U !

i dun like to argue or quarel with ppl
bcuz im 迟钝, i dunno how to balas balik ur arguing
so i have to keep ... all inside my heart
or just tell KAM or XIN

i will never forget..
in the phone with xin, i cried

i hate tis kind of feel so muchhhhh
i hate....
i rather than broke this relationship
no more pillow talks
no more trips between us
no more happy moment ..

我坚持的...都值得坚持吗?
我所相信的...就是真的吗?
如果我敢追求...我就敢拥有吗?
而如果都算了...不要呢?